I haven’t actually seen her today because I am still sick, but Phoebe’s grandmas inform me that she had a good day! She is sitting up, throwing the ball back and forth, turning pages in her book, watching cartoons and “waking up” more, and that news does my heart good.
Her CT scan of her chest and her abdominal ultrasound both came back normal with no sign of infection. Her oncologist says her high white cell count is a result of one of the chemo drugs she received and is not an indicator for infection. He also said that her breathing is improved although it is still labored and he is NOT concerned about tumor growth because the type of breathing she is exhibiting is not consistent with the breathing pattern caused by tumor pressure! THIS made me smile most of all today and allowed me to breathe a sigh of relief.
This morning, the wound care people came by and removed the dead skin from Phoebe’s hands and feet and they look amazing. The doctors were impressed with how quickly she healed up and how easy the whole process turned out to be.
Nathan’s Mom pulled a 3 nighter with Phoebe because we have been sick and that is no easy task in the ICU. My Mom is on duty tonight and I am so thankful that Phoebe has such dedicated Grandmothers. I am really missing her and hoping that tomorrow I will be in good shape and ready to stay with my girl.
I’m sorry it has taken so long to get around to posting today. I have been resting, doing school with my boys and getting things in order to go back to the hospital. Thank you all for your encouraging words and posts and e-mails. They have been bright spots in my day and I have drawn strength from them.
This morning when I woke up I felt the Lord impress Psalm 112 on my heart. I’m not familiar with that Psalm by memory, and I was blessed to tears when I read it. It felt like a promise to me…
Praise the LORD.
Blessed are those who fear the LORD,
who find great delight in his commands.
Their CHILDREN WILL BE MIGHTY IN THE LAND;
the generation of the upright will be blessed.
Wealth and riches are in their houses,
and their righteousness endures forever.
EVEN IN DARKNESS light dawns for the upright,
for those who are gracious and compassionate and righteous.
Good will come to those who are generous and lend freely,
who conduct their affairs with justice.
Surely the righteous will never be shaken;
they will be remembered forever.
They will have NO FEAR OF BAD NEWS;
their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
Their HEARTS ARE SECURE, they will have NO FEAR;
in the end they will look in triumph on their foes.
They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor,
their righteousness endures forever;
their horn will be lifted high in honor.
The wicked will see and be vexed,
they will gnash their teeth and waste away;
the longings of the wicked will come to nothing.
Amen! He is speaking to me and comforting me and guiding my heart like He guides the path of the waters, directing it and turning it. Hearing from Him this morning changed my entire outlook today and I am grateful for that!
Please pray for her throat to heal from the soreness and from being raw from the tube. Pray for her breathing to regulate and for her to be able to cough in a productive way. Pray that she will meet all of her goals to be able to move back to the oncology floor and out of ICU!