Thank you all for your guest-book posts. I read them and cry and feel uplifted and fought for, it’s awesome.
Her Creatinine #’s are lower than they were yesterday which is a good sign. Based on her input/output the doctor thinks her hydration is good. Her vitals look good as well, however, Phoebe continues to be very nauseous and is having a very difficult time keeping anything down. She also is extremely ‘out of it’ and sleeping around the clock in between short periods of being half awake. They are not happy with this, and want to see her more lucid and being able to interact well.
The doctor thinks we are dealing with an infection she is fighting off, which would not be surprising with the illness we had at home last week. As diligent as we were, I’m sure it’s impossible to keep ourselves completely germ free.
They also acknowledged that she just had a particularly harsh round of chemotherapy and that, combined with an infection, combined with blood counts dropping makes for an intense situation in her body. Dr. Bowers was right when he told us that we will feel like quitting at the end of this 12 weeks. I can’t imagine, so I won’t. I’ll just stay here in the present. When I start to think about her going through 17 more months of chemo it is overwhelming.
Tonight her Daddy is with her and I’m glad for both of them, I think they both needed some time together. I had a nice school day with the boys and spent some time planning out the next several weeks of lesson plans. Doing normal things is therapeutic..mopping, doing laundry, everyday drudgery is a welcome respite from the intensity of the hospital right now. Tonight I will enjoy a quiet evening at home with the boys and pray fervently for my girl who seems so down.
I am so thankful for those of you who have stocked our freezer with homemade meals. I can’t imagine mustering up the energy to do much more than put a frozen pizza in the oven right now!
Thank you all for standing in the gap for our family and our Phoebe.