5:20 pm:

I have to be honest, coming off the tube and waking up has not been what I pictured. Her eyes are open yes, she is giving high fives from time to time, but she is a little distant, she is not talking and she is having withdrawals from all of the heavy pain meds and sedation she has been on the past 2 weeks. This includes erratic breathing and shaking as well as diarrhea and her eyes rolling back in her head from time to time.

It makes sense, she has been intubated for two weeks fighting for her life through sepsis. I think I expected her to smile at me and say “Hi Mom”..or something to that effect, so maybe my expectations were a bit unrealistic. She needs time to recover, I know.

They are slowly weaning her off the Fentanyl and trading it out for Methadone and Valium and please pray she does well with it in the meantime. Her breathing is still quite erratic and that is concerning to the doctors although she has held her own being off the ventilator since 10:30 this morning.

Her hands and feet look great, they are healing beautifully and we are so thankful for that! I will have Nathan post some pics later as she continues to wake up more.

I’m off to cuddle with the Phoebster now, something I haven’t been able to do for two weeks! We are thanking God for baby steps and knowing that we will continue to see improvement each day. She has PULLED THROUGH sepsis, and that is amazing!

Thank you all for your love and prayers!