Phoebe and Sadie


Phoebe’s dog, Sadie, doesn’t stray too far from her theses days. We adopted Sadie when Phoebe was 3 months old and they have always had a special bond.

Without getting into the details, Phoebe is sleeping 95% of the time now and struggling in many areas. She needs your faithful prayers of healing and peace, now more than ever.




P and Sadie 3

P and Sadie 4

About Amey Fair

I am Amey Fair, wife to Nathan, and home-educating Mom to Benjamin (9), Averic (7), Deacon (4) and Phoebe (2) . Phoebe was diagnosed with a rare childhood malignant brain cancer called Atypical Teratoid Rabdoid Tumor on January 1, 2012. She had complete resection surgery to remove the tumor on January 4th and began chemotherapy using the Dana Farber protocol on January 26th. A few weeks ago I was sleeping in the chair next to Phoebe's bed in the hospital when I heard her little voice drawing me out of sleep. It was 3 am and it took me a minute to shake off the slumber. "Mommy I'm a mean girl" I thought she said. "No Phoebe, you're a nice girl!" I replied. "No Mommy, I'm a MIRACLE!" Phoebe said. "I'm a MIRACLE, I'm a MIRACLE, I'm a MIRACLE!" she continued on. My tears welled up and spilled over as she made her declaration. Phoebe doesn't know the word "miracle" nor the concept, she's only 2. It was as if the Lord was speaking through her like a prophetic utterance. She fell right back to sleep and I sat there awake, lingering in the magical moment. Less than 40 children are diagnosed with Phoebe's type of cancer in the U.S. each year. This is why it's called "ATYPICAL Teratoid Rabdoid Tumor". So, I have titled this blog in honor of Phoebe, our "Atypical Miracle". We are YWAM'ers, serving in missions through Youth With A Mission since 1998. Before returning to the states 1 year ago, we lived near Guadalajara Mexico for 3 years. It was during our year of agricultural missions training in Waco, TX that Phoebe began exhibiting symptoms from the pressure of the tumor on her brain. Weight loss, lethargy, extreme thirst and vomiting were her symptoms. We have been granted sabbatical during this time to focus on Phoebe's intensive chemotherapy treatment and are renting a home in Dallas near the Children's hospital where Phoebe is being treated. Like the woman who touched the hem of Jesus' robe in Luke chapter 8, we cling to Him, knowing that He is Phoebe's healer. If we can just touch Him, be near Him, bring Phoebe to Him each day, we have hope. He is our hope. Thank you for coming along on this journey with our family. It's therapeutic for me to write it all out, and in so doing, I hope God will use it for His glory.

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  1. Pets are a wonderful family addition, they provide unconditional love and support when needed most. I am praying for Phoebe and for your whole family as these days continue.

  2. My prayers are with you all. Phoebe is such a inspiration. She has been so brave and faithful through all her health issues. My heart goes out to all of you. My heart breaks yet know that God has her in his hands.

  3. This is truly the sweetest picture of love and grace. I am humbled beyond measure to be allowed into this special time for your family. Sweet Sadie, animals are so sensitive during these times. I swear, they’re a straight pathway to divinity. I lost my daughter to cancer just over 10 years ago, and I feel deeply for you all. Phoebe is just lovely! Vaya con Dios little one.

  4. What a precious bond. Praying without ceasing for Phoebe and you, Amey and the boys.

    All our Love and Blessings..

  5. My thoughts and prayers go out for all of you in this time. Along with all the other reasons, the photo of Phoebe shows how special she is-the love and devotion that Sadie has for her is palpable. I wish I had some wise words to offer but I am inadequate to that task and can only wish peace, blessings and comfort upon each of you and your house.

  6. Lord Jesus, Your word says You will bind up the hearts of the “broken hearted”. We ask that You send Your sweet Holy Spirit to hold this precious family, and their Little Phoebe, very close and give them peace as only He can. Allow them to feel Your unmistakeable Presence as they walk through this valley and restore their souls. Allow Little Phoebe to touch the hem of Your garment Lord Jesus and receive Your perfect healing. Surround them, dear Lord with Your precious love as never before, as each of us lift them up to You for Your amazing touch on their lives, meeting each and every need as they walk this path in You, and carry them Father when they can no longer put one foot in front of the other.

    Your are Sovereign, dear Lord, Your ways perfect and we give you all honor, glory and praise. Your mercy endureth forever. It is in the precious name of Jesus Tat we ask all these things. Amen!

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    • Your prayer Susan, is so eloquent, so perfect. I join you in this prayer for precious Phoebe, Amey, Nathan and sweet brothers. God knows your broken hearts intimately and will tend to them personally and perfectly. May He bless all of you……….

  7. Hold precious Phoebe close, Lord. Comfort and strengthen the family. Thank you, Father, for loving pets that provide silent compassion and love in their own way. Fair family, you are in my prayers.

  8. our thoughts and prayers are with you. we know all too well what you are going through. hold those little angel hands. sadie knows. how comforting to have her by your side. bless your family.

  9. We are continuing to pray for Phoebe and your family. I echo Susan’s prayer above. Thank you for the updates. My children ask daily how Phoebe is doing. Our family will continue to pray for yours!

  10. Praying for peace for your whole family & for sweet Phoebe to be pain free. Thanks for the updates. I know how hard it is for you right now. God is holding her & all of you in His strong hands every second of every day. Precious Sadie is adorable & her love is evident. Love & blessings, Elaine

  11. Thank you so much for sharing your amazing daughter with the world. She is such an inspiration and a very brave little girl. Its heart breaking what you are all going through, but your strength is a testament to the wonderful parents you are and the love your family shares. May God bless and comfort you all. Love and support and prayers from Kansas.

  12. God bless Sadie for being a faithful companion to dear Phoebe. Steadfast and earnest prayers for all of Phoebe’s needs. May Christ walk everso close with all of you, wrapping you in His Peace. Love to all of you.

  13. Praying for your family tonight. I know that the Lord is close to you now, wooing Phoebe closer to Him and His perfect rest. May you find peace in Him in these upcoming days and the days after her home-going. Thank you for sharing these posts with us. I know that Jesus is walking the halls of your home, ready to meet your needs. God bless you and your family.

  14. Susan’s prayer above says it all so much better than I ever could. Praying with her and you for sweet Phoebe. My momma’s heart is with yours. . .heavy and yet. . .the beautiful things that Phoebe has said give comfort that her Savior is present with her. She knows Him who love abundantly . . .extravagantly. Praying His love would rain down over your hearts and bring peace.

    Thank you, Lord, for Sadie dog and the comfort she brings to Phoebe!

  15. Dear Amey I send lots of love and hugs to you. I too lost a child, he was a man age 26 but the struggles were the same he has CHF. I pray for you and your beautiful child and family. God Bless you all

  16. God clearly sent Sadie to be an angel for Phoebe. My prayers and my heart are with Phoebe, Sadie and your entire family. ❤

  17. Those pictures are as touching as they are heart wrenching. What a great companion Sadie is to Phoebe. Thank you for sharing these beautiful pictures. of the special bond between your precious daughter and her dog.

  18. It is a privilege an honor to pray for Phoebe. Lord, please give Phoebe peace knowing that kind of peace comes through you. Thank you for sharing the picture, they seem so peacefully together. Pets are so healing. I will continue to pray for Phoebe and your entire family. Your story is very touching and heartfelt. Although I have never met Phoebe, I feel like she’s someone extra special that I already know. May God wrap his arms around Phoebe and comfort her. ~Amen~

  19. Continuing to pray for healing, comfort and peace for your Phoebe. You have been so generous in sharing this precious child with us. We love her. We are praying without ceasing for you, your boys, and this special child who has touched the life of thousands.

  20. These pictures warm my heart and make me smile ~ Remembering you all in prayer ~ Sweet Phoebe dreams tonight and always…Love~(((hugs))) & BLessings ~Benji

  21. Praying for u and yours!! Pets are so comforting and loving I could not be without mine. Sadie is a wonderful dog she looks to be part Sheltie. That’s the breed I have and r so loyal.

  22. Sweet, sweet baby. Just breaks my heart. Prayers for her and the whole family. Precious pictures of her and her puppy. Dogs are just amazing companions and gifts from the Lord.

  23. Lifting you all up .. Dogs are so loyal .. and they know what we need before we do… Prayers of comfort to Phoebe as well as all of you .. Father I ask you bask them in your arms and there is no pain there as time draws near.. although they will miss her I thank you for touching their lives in a way that they know this is only our temporary home … we will have eternity with you Father and our babies who beat us there…

  24. I truly believe that we’re able to glimpse God’s infinite wisdom in the eyes of our canine companions…the unspoken devotion and loyalty is overwhelming. What a blessing and a comfort sweet Sadie must be to you all! May she continue to serve as a watchful guardian while Phoebe rests. 🙂

  25. Praying for Phoebe and your family! That God moves in a mighty way, providing the ‘peace that passes all understanding’ not only for Phoebe but for entire family. She is such an inspiration and is such an amazing little girl!
    I’m so glad that Phoebe has such an amazing bond with Sadie. I pray Sadie can help Phoebe through each day she has left. I also pray that Sadie brings you joy when Phoebe joins Jesus.
    My dog has helped me through the death of my father (I know it’s not the same as losing a child), but she helped me to cope. She sat next to me while I cried, letting me know I wasn’t alone and then helped me see the joy in things again. She helped me to smile and laugh again.
    You are all in my prayers. Even though I don’t know you but Phoebe and your family are on my mind often. I will continue to pray for all of you during this difficult time.

  26. Thank you so much for sharing your heart! We will lift Phoebe in prayer. I am from Monterrey and did my DTS in Northern Wisconsin. We are now relocating to South Texas. Please keep us posted.

  27. My prayers are with her and you as I now what you feel. My granddaughter Samantha passed at 14 months from severe spina bidi a and pffiefers syndrome. I have asked Samantha to be with her. All my love little one is yours.

  28. As God is perfecting that which concerns Phoebe, may this time of sleep be the most deep-seated time of healing and restoration Phoebe has yet experienced! Thank you, Sadie, for adding your supply.

  29. Oh, Father, may this time of sleep be one of the most deep-seated times of restoration for Phoebe! We know what the report of the doctors is, and we know Phoebe has surpassed their time line. We know that as long as there is breath, there is hope. Nathan and Amey, you have stood so strongly, so steadfastly, with such love and faith…It’s very challenging to stand against what one’s eyes see. In the name of Jesus I strengthen the angelic host providing that hedge of protection around Phoebe, holding death at bay, because Jesus has triumphed over death, hell and the grave. Thank you, Sadie, for adding your precious devotion and love for your sweet mistress.

  30. What a beautiful picture of dear Phoebe and her faithful dog Sadie. Prayers continuing for all of you. May God strengthen you and wrap His love around you. We cannot begin to know what you are going through, but know that your faithfulness will be rewarded.Phoebe is such a brave little girl. God bless her little heart.

  31. Hi Amy and Nathan,
    Beautiful pictures. Thanks for sharing so much with all of us. My tears runs like a rive thru my face as I read this note this morning.
    Phoebe has really being a part of our lives and changed us in many different ways, only Lord knows. And I can’t imagine not receiving email from you guys anymore. Or see Phoebe and her pictures. But our Father holds her in his hand and HE is taking great, great care of her.
    I pray for healing and peace for our little Phoebe.

  32. Beautiful picture, so peaceful. That sweet friend standing vigil with her Phoebe is so sweet. You can tell they have a special relationship by looking at their precious years together! She’s guarding her Phoebe and keeping her comfy! So sweet. Prayers constant for your lovely family.

  33. “A basketball fan was watching his favorite team play on a delayed telecast. The outcome would influence the national championship. In the final minutes the score was tied. The tension grew in the arena. The fan, however, sat calmly on the couch without fear or worry. Why?
    Before the game stated, he heard the final score announcing that his team had won.
    In the same way, the believer in Jesus Christ can walk through tense times in perfect peace because he too already knows what the outcome will be.”

  34. Precious Phoebe angel on Earth. Praying for healing miracle for her and your entire family. Your faith & love & loyalty is an inspiration to all.

  35. Praying for your sweet family and precious Phoebe. Your family has been on my heart so much the past weeks, and I don’t even know you. I can relate to the pain of watching your adored child suffer… May the Lord bring His healing comfort and peace to all of your hearts.

  36. She is such a wonderful and beautiful child. She has touched my heart. I know of this helpless pain you feel. She is in my prayers, my thoughts, and now my heart!

  37. Can’t imagine what you guys are going through. Just know your faith is such a huge witness to all, and I am on my knees for you, for strength and peace for bothy phoebe and the rest of your family! I just came across your story and this little girl has already touched my heart! Praying for sweet kisses and moments together yet. Please know of many prayers for you, and love from Indiana!

  38. Father God, I lift up Phoebe, Amey and Nathan to you. I ask that you bring peace to Phoebe, Lord Jesus, allow her to reach out and touch you and have relief from her pain. I pray for Amey and Nathan; that you would be with them as they watch their baby girl slowly fade away from this world. I ask that you would give them strength a peace that surpasses all understanding. Help this family to feel your presence right now. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

  39. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Phoebe and your entire family have been such an inspiration to me. Your faith is bountiful. Phoebe is such a precious baby girl. May our Lord Jesus wrap his arms around Phoebe and all the Fair family. God watch over, protect and guide you.

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